TIME FOR REFLECTION
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HEY YA'LL
HAPPY 2010!
I'VE BEEN ABSENT FOR QUITE A WHILE NOW I KNOW. I'M ACTUALLY AT A LOSS FOR A DESCRIPTION OF EVERYTHING THAT HAS TRANSPIRED SINCE MY LAST BLOG. THAT IS PROBABLY A GOOD THING BECAUSE IF I COULD ARTICULATE THE EMOTIONS OF THE LAST FEW MONTHS, I MIGHT NOT USE NICE OR APPROPRIATE LANGUAGE SO I WILL CHOOSE TO DISCUSS CERTAIN EVENTS AT ANOTHER TIME WHEN RUFFLED FEATHERS ARE SMOOTHER, IF YOU CAN GET MY MEANING.
TO ME THE NEW YEAR HAS ALWAYS BEEN A TIME FOR REFLECTION. I LIKE TO TAKE A LOOK BACK AT THE LAST 12 MONTHS AND SEE WHAT I ACCOMPLISHED AND WHAT I LEARNED. I LIKE TO THINK ABOUT HOW THE YEAR AFFECTED AND CHANGED ME AND TO SEE IF I GREW AS A PERSON. I TAKE THIS TIME TO EXAMINE MY LIFE AND RE-GROUP IF NECESSARY (ITS NECESSARY!!!) AND PUT TOGETHER MY BATTLE PLAN FOR THE COMING YEAR.
I TRY TO STAY AWAY FROM "NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS" BECAUSE IT SEEMS SO EASY TO ABANDON A GOAL LIKE "LOSING WEIGHT" OR "KEEPING MY HOUSE CLEAN". WE MAKE AND BREAK THESE PROMISES TO OURSELVES EVERY YEAR. I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU ALL, BUT I DON'T WANT TO START THE NEW YEAR OFF WITH AN INSTANT FAILURE!
I LEARNED SO MUCH ABOUT MYSELF LAST YEAR. SOME THINGS THAT ARE GOOD TO KNOW LIKE HOW MANY HOURS I CAN WORK BEFORE I FORGET WHERE I LIVE. THAT IS VERY IMPORTANT INFORMATION! I CANNOT TELL YOU HOW DISTURBING IT IS TO GET IN YOUR CAR TO GO HOME AFTER A HARD DAYS WORK AND LOOK AROUND AND NOT BE ABLE TO THINK OF WHICH WAY TO TURN OUT OF THE PARKING LOT. FOR GOODNESS SAKE I HAVE LIVED IN THE SAME HOUSE (EXCEPT A COUPLE OF YEARS IN MY TWENTIES) SINCE I WAS 10 YEARS OLD! THE WORST THING IS I DID THAT IN FRONT OF A WITNESS! MY 17 YR OLD SON ACCUSED ME OF HAVING FULL BLOWN ALZHEIMER'S (I'M SURE ITS ONLY HALF TIMERS!) AND NOW HE TRYS TO TELL ME WHERE TO TURN EVERY WHERE WE GO! HE EVEN THINKS HE'S SO FUNNY THAT HE PROGRAMMED THE GPS SO I CAN JUST PUSH THE "GUIDE ME HOME" BUTTON IF I EVER GET CONFUSED!
I ALSO LEARNED THAT SOMETIMES NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY...............YOU FAIL. ITS A VERY SAD FACT. SOMETIMES EVEN IF YOU WORK AROUND THE CLOCK, AND PUT IN ALL THE EFFORT YOU CAN MUSTER, AND SACRIFICE, AND SWEAT, AND BLEED, AND CRY............YOU CAN'T MAKE THE WORLD DO WHAT YOU WANT AND YOU HAVE TO STOP. I LEARNED THAT SOMETIMES QUITTING DOESN'T MEAN YOU'RE A QUITTER. IT MEANS YOU ARE SMART ENOUGH TO REALIZE WHEN YOU CAN'T WIN NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO AND YOU JUST HAVE TO WALK AWAY. THAT WAS A VERY HARD LESSON FOR ME. I STILL HAVE PLENTY OF "IF" MOMENTS BUT EVEN IF I COULD DO SOME THINGS DIFFERENTLY MY RESTAURANT STILL WOULD HAVE FAILED. IT'S AN EMOTIONAL RIDE I WENT ON THAT I CAN SHARE ANOTHER TIME.
I KNOW I LEARNED ALOT AND AS TIME PASSES I REALIZE EVEN MORE LESSONS LEARNED FROM THAT EXPERIENCE.
THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I LEARNED IS THE SUPPORT AND LOVE OF MY FAMILY IS THE ONLY THING WORTH CARING ABOUT. MONEY AND POSSESSIONS ARE NOT AS IMPORTANT TO ME AS THEY ONCE WERE. PERHAPS ITS WISDOM THAT COMES WITH AGE BUT MY APPRECIATION OF THINGS MONEY CAN'T BUY GROWS WITH EACH PASSING YEAR. I CAN NOT EVEN IMAGINE HOW I COULD HAVE MADE IT THROUGH THE LAST FEW MONTHS IF I COULDN'T HAVE CALLED MY MOM WHINNING FOR A PEP TALK, OR LIMPED HOME TO MY HUSBAND WHO HAD ALREADY COOKED MY DINNER AND BATHED MY KIDS! I CAN ONLY PRAY THAT MY HUSBAND KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM AND THAT I THANK GOD FOR HIM EVERY DAY (SOMETIMES TWICE!) NO MATTER WHAT I DO OR WHAT CRAZY IDEA I HAVE HE ALWAYS SUPPORTS ME. HE ALWAYS LISTENS TO MY COMPLAINTS. HE ALWAYS TRYS TO HELP. HE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME AND OUR BOYS. I COULD NEVER ASK FOR A BETTER PARTNER TO GO THROUGH LIFE WITH.
HAPPY 2010!
I'VE BEEN ABSENT FOR QUITE A WHILE NOW I KNOW. I'M ACTUALLY AT A LOSS FOR A DESCRIPTION OF EVERYTHING THAT HAS TRANSPIRED SINCE MY LAST BLOG. THAT IS PROBABLY A GOOD THING BECAUSE IF I COULD ARTICULATE THE EMOTIONS OF THE LAST FEW MONTHS, I MIGHT NOT USE NICE OR APPROPRIATE LANGUAGE SO I WILL CHOOSE TO DISCUSS CERTAIN EVENTS AT ANOTHER TIME WHEN RUFFLED FEATHERS ARE SMOOTHER, IF YOU CAN GET MY MEANING.
TO ME THE NEW YEAR HAS ALWAYS BEEN A TIME FOR REFLECTION. I LIKE TO TAKE A LOOK BACK AT THE LAST 12 MONTHS AND SEE WHAT I ACCOMPLISHED AND WHAT I LEARNED. I LIKE TO THINK ABOUT HOW THE YEAR AFFECTED AND CHANGED ME AND TO SEE IF I GREW AS A PERSON. I TAKE THIS TIME TO EXAMINE MY LIFE AND RE-GROUP IF NECESSARY (ITS NECESSARY!!!) AND PUT TOGETHER MY BATTLE PLAN FOR THE COMING YEAR.
I TRY TO STAY AWAY FROM "NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS" BECAUSE IT SEEMS SO EASY TO ABANDON A GOAL LIKE "LOSING WEIGHT" OR "KEEPING MY HOUSE CLEAN". WE MAKE AND BREAK THESE PROMISES TO OURSELVES EVERY YEAR. I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU ALL, BUT I DON'T WANT TO START THE NEW YEAR OFF WITH AN INSTANT FAILURE!
I LEARNED SO MUCH ABOUT MYSELF LAST YEAR. SOME THINGS THAT ARE GOOD TO KNOW LIKE HOW MANY HOURS I CAN WORK BEFORE I FORGET WHERE I LIVE. THAT IS VERY IMPORTANT INFORMATION! I CANNOT TELL YOU HOW DISTURBING IT IS TO GET IN YOUR CAR TO GO HOME AFTER A HARD DAYS WORK AND LOOK AROUND AND NOT BE ABLE TO THINK OF WHICH WAY TO TURN OUT OF THE PARKING LOT. FOR GOODNESS SAKE I HAVE LIVED IN THE SAME HOUSE (EXCEPT A COUPLE OF YEARS IN MY TWENTIES) SINCE I WAS 10 YEARS OLD! THE WORST THING IS I DID THAT IN FRONT OF A WITNESS! MY 17 YR OLD SON ACCUSED ME OF HAVING FULL BLOWN ALZHEIMER'S (I'M SURE ITS ONLY HALF TIMERS!) AND NOW HE TRYS TO TELL ME WHERE TO TURN EVERY WHERE WE GO! HE EVEN THINKS HE'S SO FUNNY THAT HE PROGRAMMED THE GPS SO I CAN JUST PUSH THE "GUIDE ME HOME" BUTTON IF I EVER GET CONFUSED!
I ALSO LEARNED THAT SOMETIMES NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY...............YOU FAIL. ITS A VERY SAD FACT. SOMETIMES EVEN IF YOU WORK AROUND THE CLOCK, AND PUT IN ALL THE EFFORT YOU CAN MUSTER, AND SACRIFICE, AND SWEAT, AND BLEED, AND CRY............YOU CAN'T MAKE THE WORLD DO WHAT YOU WANT AND YOU HAVE TO STOP. I LEARNED THAT SOMETIMES QUITTING DOESN'T MEAN YOU'RE A QUITTER. IT MEANS YOU ARE SMART ENOUGH TO REALIZE WHEN YOU CAN'T WIN NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO AND YOU JUST HAVE TO WALK AWAY. THAT WAS A VERY HARD LESSON FOR ME. I STILL HAVE PLENTY OF "IF" MOMENTS BUT EVEN IF I COULD DO SOME THINGS DIFFERENTLY MY RESTAURANT STILL WOULD HAVE FAILED. IT'S AN EMOTIONAL RIDE I WENT ON THAT I CAN SHARE ANOTHER TIME.
I KNOW I LEARNED ALOT AND AS TIME PASSES I REALIZE EVEN MORE LESSONS LEARNED FROM THAT EXPERIENCE.
THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I LEARNED IS THE SUPPORT AND LOVE OF MY FAMILY IS THE ONLY THING WORTH CARING ABOUT. MONEY AND POSSESSIONS ARE NOT AS IMPORTANT TO ME AS THEY ONCE WERE. PERHAPS ITS WISDOM THAT COMES WITH AGE BUT MY APPRECIATION OF THINGS MONEY CAN'T BUY GROWS WITH EACH PASSING YEAR. I CAN NOT EVEN IMAGINE HOW I COULD HAVE MADE IT THROUGH THE LAST FEW MONTHS IF I COULDN'T HAVE CALLED MY MOM WHINNING FOR A PEP TALK, OR LIMPED HOME TO MY HUSBAND WHO HAD ALREADY COOKED MY DINNER AND BATHED MY KIDS! I CAN ONLY PRAY THAT MY HUSBAND KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM AND THAT I THANK GOD FOR HIM EVERY DAY (SOMETIMES TWICE!) NO MATTER WHAT I DO OR WHAT CRAZY IDEA I HAVE HE ALWAYS SUPPORTS ME. HE ALWAYS LISTENS TO MY COMPLAINTS. HE ALWAYS TRYS TO HELP. HE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME AND OUR BOYS. I COULD NEVER ASK FOR A BETTER PARTNER TO GO THROUGH LIFE WITH.
MY GOALS FOR THIS NEW YEAR ARE SIMPLE REALLY, I JUST WANT TO KEEP MY FAMILY FIRST IN MY HEART AND MAKE SURE THEY ARE AWARE THAT THEY ARE MY PRIORITY. I STILL AM COMMITTED TO OUR GIFT SHOP AND I INTEND TO FOCUS ON WAYS TO INCREASE OUR MARKETING. I WOULD SOOOOOO LOVE TO TURN A PROFIT THIS YEAR. AND IF I LOST A FEW POUNDS I WOULDN'T COMPLAIN!
YA'LL HANG IN THERE,
YVONNE
